My Life and Times

b00mchic @ 2006-09-20T23:26:00

2006-09-21T03:28:15Z

SO it has been one of those days
maybe weeks
I dont know
so much to do
very busy
I am tired
stressed
and so on
just wanted to say hi
starting to stress about next week
I am hoping that it is better

b00mchic @ 2006-09-08T23:05:00

2006-09-09T03:07:42Z

THEY CAUGHT BUCKY!!!!!!!
I am so excited

b00mchic @ 2006-07-17T08:34:00

2006-07-17T12:34:58Z

I want to say Happy Birthday to my only brother in law. I wish you Clint a wonderful day.

b00mchic @ 2006-06-30T01:47:00

2006-06-30T05:48:50Z

why am I up so late

I will tell you why
Bridal shower invites
my hand hurts
I have to run out and buy more
I bought 40
that wasnt enough
go figure
I dont have enough return address labels either
go figure
well off to bed
since I have to get things for the shower
plus Adia's party this weekend

b00mchic @ 2006-06-28T00:28:00

2006-06-28T04:36:45Z

so it is late at night I have been busy.. what else is new though.. I am finally done with school untill the fall. well I have to go and start my research project and also start doing things for the association but that is it.. I have been working about 2 times a week for the red cross which is nice.. I like having some extra money and also getting out there doing something for myself but I am also teaching people to save lives..
The girls have been alrigth could be better but could be worse you know.. ever since we had those people come in and talk to malena she hasnt had a fit or anything.. she's wanted too but hasnt.. Sabrina is taking more on by herself.. She is actually helping me when I am busy even with dirty diapers.. I am surprised since I never asked her to do that..
Steven is busy with work. I dont see him much and we talk once in a while. HE is getting a new schedule. we need something though..
So lets go back to almost a year ago. I was having dreams well they are back.. and more intense.. I dont know what to think about them so I am putting them in the back of my mind. There isnt really anything else I can do you know. I dont have time for it right now..
I feel bad that I havent sent out my sister's showers invites yet. I should be done and mailed out.. I will get to them in the morning.. thats all i can say. I know she is ok about it but I am not. One of those kinds of things.. I also have to get stuff for Adia's bday party on Sunday.. I havent even started yet.. man oh man.. I thought that i would have some time to relax.. we are going to NC in a week in a half.. to see my sister.. I cant wait.. and then i get to see her at them end of the month too... wow I dont know if I can handle that either.. Steven has to work that whole week when hershower is but hopefully by then we have the second car.. maybe he can have some relaxation with out us..
well i gotta shower and get to bed.. I might do my hair tomorrow since i havent been doing it lately with it being summer.. I am also going back to my workout hopefully tomorrow.. i work tomorrow night but dont have anything during the day but shopping and Nikki's invites hopefully the kids will be good.. and help out..

b00mchic @ 2006-06-19T15:42:00

2006-06-19T19:43:21Z

I am in the mood that everyone sucks
I am in a bad mood
I am in a shity mood
I am in the crying mood
Now I am on my way to work

b00mchic @ 2006-06-19T00:03:00

2006-06-19T04:05:17Z

My weekend was long
school ends this week
I have albany this weekend
I hope and worry that I am not going to be able to do it
if I only had more time
I dont get it
I was working on my class project with my group
they told me that my house was dirty
you know how much that hurt
I had tears in my eyes
it hurts lot
I dont understand
I know I am not perfect
I am now in a bad mood
I am frustrated
I am hurt
I am sad
I am stressed
I am scared
I am angry
I am I am

b00mchic @ 2006-06-05T23:34:00

2006-06-06T03:39:24Z

I decided to write something else too
have you ever missed something or someone
you just sit and think
wonder
you dont act since there is no point
but you wonder
you think and try to picture
you want to ask questions
but there is no one there
maybe you have a picture
or even a memory
it makes you smile
yet it makes you sad
WHY?
comes to mind
thats all you can say
yet noone can answer
pondering about the past
the present
and then future
wondering will I even see this thing again
will I ever have this memory again
could I have it
It is a free memory
with smiles and joy
yet I sit here
writing this
so the odds are
no it is the past
it is gone

you dont have to ask.. dont worry I am ok.. well I am what I normally am

b00mchic @ 2006-06-05T23:33:00

2006-06-06T03:34:56Z

school is killing me
working is bugging too
I dont know where I am going to fine the time
and then my family too
they are important
worked tonight
school during the day
work tomorrow night school during the day
and then school on wednesday
but no work
stuff aroudn the house
school work too
MAN OH MAN

b00mchic @ 2006-05-25T11:49:00

2006-05-25T15:57:14Z

So I sit here trying to think of everything I need to do..
There is alot of stuff
I cant find my title to my car either
that makes me made since
I need to give it to my dad
I wish I could find it
I found something else that I was looking for though
so I guess that is a plus
I was at CPSE meetings all morning
I am there tomorrow too
Maureen comes up tomorrow too
got the party on Saturday
Steven is off all weeekend
Tomorrow is his last day at the store and then he moves on
I want to go for a walk but no one wants to go with me
I miss Marky...
He would of went with me
I cant wait for him to come back here for a little bit

b00mchic @ 2006-05-23T13:36:00

2006-05-23T17:40:26Z

So I sit here right before I get Adia from school
wondering what is going on
I am starting to stress alittle about school
I also got my work schedule for the red cross too
I have classes with me alone
I dont know what the hell I am going to do
I am waiting to hear about the job I applied for
I would really really want to get it
It would be very nice
I walked about 4 miles with steven today
which was cool
we went to the park
I am looking forward in having Momo up here this weekend
I am looking forward for school
I am scared and stressed about school
I am so HAPPY ABOUT my 4.0
Thanks for everyone being there
I am off to get my daughter

b00mchic @ 2006-05-16T00:23:00

2006-05-16T04:25:41Z

can I say I hate bills
I hate things that come at you when you dont even rememberit
I hate this
I am trying to take care of things then this
it frustrates me so much
I dont get it
I feel that no one will let me get a head
I am SO Piss
Frustrated
DOWN
but what can you do
I will figure out something

b00mchic @ 2006-05-15T00:06:00

2006-05-15T04:10:52Z

So mothers day is here and gone
had a good day
helped malena with a project for school
Marky did alot of it
thanks to him
He is great
I went out to dinner
with Steven, Sabrina, Malena, Adia and Marky
My family here is the Blo
Road house of course
my kids even got me a YEHA
ice cream and all
they are so cute
I got breakfast in bed
I did some house work
church of course
so that was my day
not to bad
the kids were great
that was the best present
Now it is going to be a busy week
I dont know what I am going to do
I have school on thursday
I hope i do well on the test
it is a BIG thing

HEY MOM

2006-05-14T17:11:01Z

Just wanted to wish all the mothers out there.. or acting mothers happy MOthers day to you

b00mchic @ 2006-05-12T00:36:00

2006-05-12T04:36:54Z

So it has been a weird day
I got my grade from my last test in AP
it was a 84
that means I have to get a 90 or higher on the last test to
keep
yes I will say my 4.0
I got my grades back from Buffalo State
and i got As in all my classes
now I have to see what I get in AP to see if it will stay that way

I am so frustrate
I feel so misunderstood
I feel like I am alone
with tons of people around me
I feel that no one in this house knows how I feel
that it is ok to disrespect
to frustrate
to laugh at someone
I dont get it
but oh well it happens
lets see how tomorrow goes

b00mchic @ 2006-05-10T23:41:00

2006-05-11T03:45:51Z

this is be quick..
but i havce to say
i cant stand being left out of things
when i think they somewhat relate to me
or affect me
this is so stupid
I am trying to get things organized
yet no one will let me
I have things coming from me at all ways
I have people not communicating with me
they use too
but what are you going to do
right
i cant do anything
i try to keep in touch with people
thank goodness I have some people
that respect me
my family
and so on
I just dont get it
it does make me mad
it makes me when I am not listen too
not if someone doesnt take what I say and do it
but respected in other words
or when i try to help someone with something
how can i when they dont give me the information
I dont understand
maybe I never will

b00mchic @ 2006-05-04T00:21:00

2006-05-04T04:21:44Z

I sit here with less then 7 hours till my final
am I asleep
I cant stand this
so much in my mind
I am going crazy
lots of thoughts
they wont stop
The Red Cross was fun tonight
I like what I am doing
hopefully it works out
and I go further
School is coming to an end
busy with that
almost done
I have 2 test tomorrow
I will be on soon

OH I want to give a shout out to Nikki
GREAT JOB ON YOUR CLASS
You go with your bad self

b00mchic @ 2006-04-30T19:51:00

2006-04-30T23:56:21Z

So it is the last day of April
Here is to the next month
lats of happiness I hope
Hung around the house today
played outside
My bro and I kicked butt in Basketball
had some clams
chilled
went for a bike ride
and now I have to start getting ready for my finals
which are this week
Hung out with the kids
that was fun too

we were suppose to go out last night
but didnt
I feel asleep early
and when Jackie came to sit for us
Steven wasnt in the mood either
I wish he would of told jackie that before she came though
I felt bad since she had her kid too
but seemed alright with it though

So now I am here trying not to stress about finals
trying to take the 3 tests this week

well till later

b00mchic @ 2006-04-28T07:36:00

2006-04-28T11:36:42Z

weird
You know even when you are trained in something.. when the time comes to use it.. it can be very scary...

After dropping Sarbina off at school I was coming home and there was a guy on the ground.. I think he fell off the recycle truck.. I pulled my car to a safe place since I had Adia and Malena in it.. I started heading over.. Soon after the fire chief came since he lives right around the corner..

Its not a big deal but its scary to have to think about everything I have been trained for and preparing myself to use it. I guess thats why I learned it but also teach it.. But still I rather be prepared then have to use it..

b00mchic @ 2006-04-26T00:10:00

2006-04-26T04:13:40Z

Just wanted to drop a hello
I am been so busy though
school
kids
work
training
organizing
and so on
I dont even know where to start
I will figure it all out soon
once I get organize
finals are next week
I took one Monday
that wasnt bad though
so lets see how things go for the rest
well I will be back on another time
soon I hope

b00mchic @ 2006-04-19T07:28:00

2006-04-19T11:31:27Z

I feel like an ass that I dont get here more...
I should
I have been so busy
I had a huge presentation yesterday
I think it went ok
well I know it did
I got 102%
go me....
so that is done i have to finish up the project part
and hand it in tomorrow
I am working for the Red Cross
I have some training to do today
I feel weird
I am still stressed
feel like no one wants to help me
but everyone wants my help
its a long story
i GUESS I cant say no
I feel bad
so I dont
well I will try to be on more
Oh by the way
my mom is coming in on Thursday

b00mchic @ 2006-04-03T00:22:00

2006-04-03T04:27:45Z

can you say STRESSED!!!!
Just alittle bit
two test in 12 hours
and I am ready no
I havent done any studying
I cant believe it
I have a headache
I am trying to get stuff done
I did stuff outside today
my house is a mess
I dont know what to do
my friend wants to come over tomorrow
maybe to study and this place looks like this
what are you going to do though
I dont know
I dont know if I am ready for this stress
I cant believe everything I did
but there is more to do
I cant believe it
I feel like nothing got done
but alot did
it doesnt look like it though
the kids were good this weekend
alot of help too
adia was cute
she loves it when I can take her on a bike ride
Worry about money
school
life
kids
husband
house work
I am so STRESSED
and it doesnt help that Adia didnt get to bed till 11
since the time switched
Sabrina was up late due to science project
malena I dont know why she was up late
sent my husband to bed at 1130
and then I have been trying to get things set for tomorrow
Emailed the red cross
got oks from my references too
so that is a good thing
I have to send the thing out to NCCC
so I can get paid for that too
which I guess is a good thing
need to catch up with people I havent talked to
Have so much to do
I have to think
A FEW MORE WEEKS OF HELL
and that is it
a few more
I dont know
hopefully I can get through it

b00mchic @ 2006-04-02T00:51:00

2006-04-02T06:00:04Z

here it is late and I am up
trying to get some stuff done for school
even though i havent studied and I have 3 tests this week
Steven is out with my friend since i dont have time to go out
I am tired but i have so SOSO much to do
I hope I can make it through the next couple of weeks
and then i have some more test and then I am done for the semester
I am frustrated with school
I went to church tonight
I went to confession too
since you should during lent
I dont know if I am looking forward to the next couple of weeks
Steven is trying to help
sometimes more frustrating
I have a candle party I am hosting in tuesday
like i have time for that
here is a note though so I dont forget
Desiree didnt come to her last visit
she didnt show up at all
no call no show( 3/ 26)
it is frustrating that a mother would do that
especially when she is supposely trying to get her childrens trust back
what are you going to do about it
I have a couple weeks till my doctors appointment
I wonder what is causing my chest pains
probably stress
thats what they are going to say
I have a feeling
atleast I will know all my results
Adia is doing ok
She fell really bad at Daycare on Monday and messed up her nose bad
but since we took care of it
it looks alright
hopefully it doesnt scare
thats all she needs
malena is ok
we have had a tough couple of weeks
but I am hoping it will get better
Sabrina too
she is getting so big
all I know is that I love them so much
Sorry this is all in one
I have been so busy with stuff to get on
I should start getting on every morning before we head out
like i did before
well off to do some school work
maybe or study
or sleep

b00mchic @ 2006-03-21T13:16:00

2006-03-21T18:17:58Z

In a mood today
I am down in the dumps..
Stressed out
I havent even started my school work
I did go to the gym today
tomorrow I have my doctors appointments
I have 2 in one day
Malena had a bad morning too
I dont know what I am going to do
I just dont get it

b00mchic @ 2006-03-05T23:07:00

2006-03-06T04:11:42Z

I sit here wondering if the phone will ring
I will give it a few more minutes and then off to shower
I have laundry in the dryer
I have to get Adia's clothes ready for daycare tomorrow
I am hoping to get to the gym tomorrow
since I didnt feel good and didnt go on Friday
and all weekend
I am still not up to par
but oh well
my life doesnt stop for that
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow
CLEANING TIME
and then school work
and then get Adia
then Malena
then Sabrina
then Steven
bring them all home and
then off to class which I will be in till 845
the fun
after that get home
put Adia to bed
and then school work
but hopefully not for the next day

I have to try to get out my info for the Red Cross
I hope things work out well for that
it will be some kind of money and experience
which is always good
I will probably try to fax it to the guy around one
I dont know
well I dont think the phone will ring so I am off to try to get to bed before midnight